Midnight Snack

Currently Craving: SLEEP

OK. it's One A.M. i should be asleep. that really should be NO PROBLEM for me. but, obviously i'm not. and i'm actually blaming it on yoga and not on hormones. we worked on backbending tonight and then i drove home in the rain so i had to play all this up beat music to keep myself awake and alert. but really, that was like five hours ago, i could be asleep by now. not so. really not fabulous because i have to teach in the southside tomorrow at 6:30am, maybe i just won't sleep until after class.... ugh.

so usually i sleep through the midnight feeding. (you probably thought those started when the baby arrived, but no, it turns out mama needs a sandwich too) tonight, seeing as i'm awake and tossing and turning in the too hot bed where max is totally passed out, i am not a happy camper when my hormone levels start to rise to the point of unbearable need for sustenance.

this starts probably around midnight. my thought process goes something like... ' i should make a list of all my good and bad foods for the blog.... peanut butter good (mmmmm PB would be GOOD right now) yogurt bad (oh my god i'm going to barf, but i don't barf so i'm just going to feel bad) Saltines used to be good (now i'm really going to barf.... STOP THINKING ABOUT IT) mmmmm i'm hungry. .... OH MY GOD, i'm hungry.... that's the problem.. ok. well, it's midnight, it isn't time to eat... but i didn't get enough calories today... oh well, it's midnight if you eat now you'll blow up like a fat cow tomorrow.... but i'm hungry ok ok... what is there here that i can eat?
saltine with peanut butter: UGH, NO
Vegan Chicken Salad... maybe but probably not the best idea right now, that weird spice aftertaste thing
pasta with butter: UGH, i might spew
yogurt, no. cereal with milk, no (presumed dairy ugginess issue)
BANANA with peanut butter.... YES!!! that would RULE! ... WHY DID I NOT BUY BANANAS TODAY????
what else?
frozen waffle, maybe with peanut butter and jelly? maybe
Maybe Max will go out and buy bananas for me right now. mmmmm that would be SOOOO good. i could eat it in bed with peanut butter on it. is he awake? no, he's snoring. dang it
what else?
when is my mom going to mail me oatmeal cookies????
ooo ooo English Muffin with Peanut Butter.. it would get all melty and delicious... UGH! NO ENGLISH MUFFINS?? why was i so insane at Ukrops today as to leave those things out???
ok. we need to make a costco run
the canned tuna fish sounds good. not actually out of the can i just see all the cans stacked up and it seems like a good idea.
oh yeah.... how about frozen raviolis from Costco...
ARG! we're out of those too.
make note: I AM SENDING MAX TO COSTCO TOMORROW
OK what we do have is refrigerated tortellini. it's whole wheat so that's a good idea. OK OK YES THIS WILL WORK!!!
should i get out of bed? i'm STARVING... GO EAT and if max wakes up it's ok he can eat too, he probably didn't eat today. (he's not going to wake up, if he did he'd be going out in the rain for bananas)'


so i finally make it out of bed and down the stairs into the kitchen. i feel like the ultimate pregnant lady now. i'm standing there in my bathrobe filling the pot of water and hoping that my neighbor doesn't look through her kitchen window and see me having a midnight snack (and taking a sip of water from the pot, i'm THIRSTY) while i'm waiting for it to boil i snack on the vegan chicken salad. i thought it would be bad, but it was good except for the continuing aftertaste. then i mess with the totally insane shopping list i made last week but then didn't have the energy to shop. and this week i've been to the grocery store twice, both times without the list and still don't have all i need. and do have a lot i don't need. i need more red apples apparently. (and BANANAS, but that is obvious) i also snack on ginger ale and water and i pass on veggie booty. maybe a good idea? the other problem with getting up (besides random face stuffing) is that i suddenly feel ugggy more and have womanly cramps from working the muscles so much in yoga tonight and my body reminds me that the plumbing just isn't what it used to be down there. so i sort of think i felt better laying down except the nagging hunger... arg!
finally they're done. i didn't make even a serving size so that's good. i'm slowly learning the small meal rule. you really Do feel better that way. and then i sat upright at the dining room table in the dark and ate them with a fork and no sauce. pretty darn good actually. so the rules are.. small meals, nothing too crazy or with a crazy aftertaste, and eat sitting up even when laying down seems like a fabulous idea... even continue to sit up afterwards.
completely satisfied though in actuality still a little hungry (NO MORE, small meal rule applies even at midnight) i make it back up here to blog while it settles in down there. and hopefully to make myself tired. we'll see what happens.