Two months to go

Currently Craving: MMMmm more gelato from up the street

we have reached the two month mark. i am officially seven months pregnant much to the surprise of anyone i meet. i think they expect me to say i'm about 5 months. usually the second question after how far along are you is 'first baby?' well, obviously. next time i'll be hanging out everywhere i suppose.

at this point we still have a lot on our to do list to get ready. some are small things like move the towels out of the closet in Babe's room to the bathroom and some are big things like find a pediatrician. (we really need to get on that). but we have a start on setting up her bedroom and yesterday i washed all the clothes we have for her already. turns out we have a lot of onsies.

so the nesting thing is starting to come upon me. first, with beginning to set up a nursery for Babe we have to clean out her closet which started a process of thinning down the amount of bed sheets we have. i decided to offer one set to my sister... that then prompted me to look at a lot of my non-maternity clothing and wonder if it is something i will ever wear again. what i've learned while pregnant is that i can get by and be quite happy with a lot fewer clothes in my closet than i seem to think. mainly i just need some great yoga clothes and a few things to get me back and forth and an outfit or two for going out or dressing up and i'm good. time to thin down the clothes and maybe, just maybe it's time to get rid of things i've had since (gasp!) high school.
so yesterday started the going through my own closets and boxes holding clothes and trying to be very honest with myself about whether i was really going to wear any of it again. i produced a big bag of clothes for liz to look through and then a smaller one of things i know she won't want that will go to goodwill. then again today i started with going through all my shoes... i'm terrible about shoes. it's not like i have tons of really cute pairs or anything like that. my shoes are pretty boring and i NEVER get rid of them. so today i went through and made yet another goodwill bag, keeping only shoes that i really wear. that led me into cleaning out underneath the bathroom sink and that only stopped because max came home and we decided to have lunch.

when i was in ohio my yoga teacher, ann, was saying that she used to change careers and do amazing things like live on safari in africa all the time. one of her friends decided to quit a job after 20 years and called and asked ann: how do you do it? what do you do to change your life all the time? and ann said 'the first thing you do is go through all your closets and get rid of anything that doesn't fit your life any more. clear out the old to make space for the new' that's what it feels like i'm doing here.

i've only gotten a small start on things and everywhere i look i am completely dissatisfied with the state of any and all closets and cabinets. i see something in every corner and have the urge to pretty much throw away all of our possessions to make room for babe. and i want to CLEAN everything! the funny thing is i know this is definitely "nesting" but i didn't realize how strong the urge to do it would be. i actually feel pretty crummy and tired and yet i have the energy to tackle clearing out my shoes... a project i would usually ignore until another day. certainly there is a psychological component to this in that i KNOW that the baby is on her way and we'd like to be organized before she comes. at the same time i'm surprised at how very BIOLOGICAL this urge feels. it seriously comes from deep inside my bones and says: GET READY! it's going to happen! i guess its time to start sweeping out my cave and really making the space ready for this baby.